I deeply cherish my time alone. Please don’t get me wrong. I love when I pick up my kids from school and they come running to me. I love dancing and loud music, sometimes. I love good friends’ company! But there is an attraction in being alone. I can be completely mindful in my body and with my surroundings. Everything is heightened. I can hear every noise in the house. I can become very present with what I’m doing. I can feel my breath. I can hear my body living. My mind shuts down and it’s very quiet and peaceful. Sometimes I have thoughts that come knocking at my door. It’s ok. I entertain them for a moment, and let them go. Sometimes Dorito (my dog) asks for attention but I tell him to leave me alone. He quickly gets the message and sits by my side. I can go back to being with myself.
In this silence, there is a presence of wonder and magnificence. I can feel the presence of the divine. I can feel the presence of spirit. Without this, I would be pulled in all directions. Without this, I would loose my ground and balance. Without this, I wouldn’t be able to be me.
Silence is awareness. Awareness is wisdom. Inner wisdom to know what we can control and what we can’t. Wisdom is not knowledge; wisdom is actually an inner quality of openness and surrendering to what it is and what will be. Wisdom is allowing our unconscious to go through the cracks of our being and become conscious. Wisdom is inner peace.
“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,The courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference.” Reinhold Niebuhr