As I woke up this morning, I had to crawl out of bed and into the bath tub. The spasms were so intense I could not walk…oh my…I told myself, this is a first one! I might need some muscle relaxant if it continues like that. As much as I hate taking medicine, sometimes it’s much needed. And sometimes, we have to get onto our knees in order to see…
As I sat into my bath tub, soaking my muscles, I thanked whoever out there decided I needed this pain. Thank you for the pain! (by this time, you are definitely thinking that I am crazy! that’s ok. I am used to it). Thank you for telling me to stop and listen. Thank you for bringing me to my knees. Thank you for this moment of reflection and wonder.
Past the uncomfortableness of the moment, I wondered…what is the pain teaching me? where is it located, and why? how does it feel? how did it start, and why? And as I closed my eyes, I slowly allowed the answers to come to me, from my unconscious.
The body is very wise, we are the ones that fall short and live with the belief that we are smarter. No, we are not! Our bodies store our experiences, our emotions, our beliefs. They talk to us, only if we listened…Our tendency of escaping is incredible…I wonder why…is it the human nature to escape?
I am grateful for my wonderful friend who came and gave me so much needed Reiki. Thank you! I can walk! I am also grateful for this time that reminds me to take care of myself. Yes, sometimes we are no longer the enlightened one, or the spiritual one, or the strong one; we are just who we are, with our feeble attempt to make it through the day. As she said, real strength is found in true weakness. And I add, in true weakness, we must find love and compassion towards ourselves so that we can spread love and compassion towards others. It all starts with us.
“There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own Soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.” C.G.Jung